Many things went through my mind: I am missing seeing my nephews and nieces group up, some of them getting married, birthday parties, family get-together, etc. Time will not go back ... I already missed many things and will not be able to make up for it ...
I have to say I was full of second thoughts. THEN, God spoke to me! ... in a way only He can do. He took me to the book of Jonah and his reluctance to go where he was supposed to go due to lack of faith and plain disobedience. God told me I was having a lot in common with Jonah ... enough said.
We came back, obedient to God´s message. Work here is hard and I had this thought in my mind. It is a bigger job that us. We will never be able to see fruit. We will get burnt out again working and working harder to see something happen.
Then I talked to Sonia ...
Sonia is a lady that came to Christ a little over a year ago. Right after arriving, still trying to feel excited about the "work I have to do", she called me. She was SO excited about us being back and said: "While you were away, I was afraid I would not know how to relate to God but the strangest thing happened: He started talking to me! He speaks to me through the circumstances, through the Bible ... it is incredible!"
Wow! So I am not the one "doing the work"! Yeah! I felt such a peace, this work is not on my shoulders, He is doing it and He is allowing me to see and rejoice on what He is accomplishing! I am trying to keep this thought very alive in my mind and heart. I cannot take control over things because He is in control, He is doing, He is the head and the active part of this work. I feel released and I am trying carefully to keep that perspective in front of me. It is so much easier to be doing rather than being.
May we all be able to find this place where there is rest for our souls, by the Good Shepherd, watching His work while enjoying fresh water and calmness.
